Two posts ago I talked about how I don't like where I am at in my life right now. But I need to expound on that and clarify some of my statements. When I pictured myself and where I wanted to be at age 27 it was always happily married to a good, Catholic man and being a stay at home mom. (I always pictured myself thinner though.) So in that sense I have what I wanted.
What I didn't foresee, was that I would still be struggling with feelings of inadequacy. Why can't I just accept that I am good enough and get on with my life? Travis is pleased, Lydia is happy, my mom thinks I'm great and - to top it all off - I'm positive that God has found favor with me; I wouldn't be so blessed if He hadn't.
It may be hard, but it is a joy. And I don't want to work! I don't want to put my baby in day care! I want to be the one to play with her and love on her and care for her. I guess, though, I'm still getting over the freedom that I had and, again, adjusting to life as a mom and finding my footing when it comes to being a competent mom.