- beginning the day with a family morning offering
- ending the day with a family act of contrition
- serving a special meal and dessert for Baptism days and lighting the kids' Baptismal candles at dinner time.
- making a special meal and dessert for namesake days, aka celebrating the feast days of the saints we are named for.
- taking note of one or two special feast days in each month and doing something special to recognize them, be it a special kind of food, a craft, or even placing a holy car in a place of honor.
Really, I could handle this. I could do this. But except for the daily family morning offering, I don't.
I thought it would become easier as my children grew older but now that I officially have a seven year old and my baby is almost two, well, I feel even further from this goal than I was when I was knee-deep in babes.
And let me tell you something:
It doesn't feel like an epic fail at all. It doesn't even feel like a little failure. It just feels like life being lived.
Do you know how good that feels? To have gotten to a place where I can just let go and be okay with where we are?
It feels so good. It feels freeing. It feels like how God wants it to be.
Let me tell you something funny:
I haven't celebrated a feast day since St. Patrick's Day, which was more of a cultural thing in our home anyways so really it was probably Advent. But on the last day of April I thought, "May is the month of Mary. I should re-decorate a bit so the house shows that while it's still the Season of Easter it is also the month of Mary."
And so on May 1st I felt happy that I had thought ahead and gotten things lined up, until I got online and saw Kaitlin's home altar with it's statues of St. Joseph and all the play tools her kids had brought to honor St. Joseph the Worker and how Lisa was making St. Joseph May Day baskets. Such good ideas- both of them!
I had to laugh.
Here it was my son's namesake day and the day I usually honor my husband and instead I had completely overlooked it.
Oh well. The great thing is that there's always another chance to pick up and try again, right?
May is super busy with end of school things, Travis' coaching schedule and masters' projects, birthdays, speaking gigs, Mother's Day, seasonal allergy stuff that won't go away, and more. I'm going to just focus on Mary, the rest of Easter, and Pentecost for this month. Next month we can begin the Act of Contrition and sitting down with a calendar to plan meals and special days a bit better. June has two baptisms to celebrate... (root me on, will you?)
Also, here's one more goal that I have but it's so foreign to me that I just don't really know what it should look like and how it should work. If you have any experience with such things I'd love to hear your thoughts - blog it or leave it in the combox, please. That last goal: to have 10-15 minutes of quiet, prayer time where my kids are praying / reading their age-appropriate Bibles and so am I. Anyone have any ideas about this?
Whatever happens with all this I hope I don't stress. I've stressed enough in my life and that's not what living out our Christian faith should be. It should be joyful; it should be freeing.
Christ didn't come so we would have busy schedules. He came to set us free.
"Rejoice and be glad for the Lord has truly risen."