But sleeping bag coats cost at least $75, usually over $100, so I always wrote off the possibility of getting one. I mean, there's no way I should be spending that kind of money on myself! Especially when I have a coat.
I think all moms sacrifice for their kids, homes, families. I also know that deep down part of me just didn't think I deserved a nice new coat like what the prettier, smarter, more popular moms have. I should just make do, I should lose weight, I should push through. My ragamuffin coat is good enough for ragamuffin-top me.
After Christmas I was looking at a catalog and I mentioned to Travis that they had sleeping bag coats and I'd like to buy one but they were so expensive. He didn't care about the price, though. He reminded me that I had extra money in my PayPal account and reminded me that my current coat doesn't fit. "Bonnie, we live in Central Illinois. The high yesterday was 2 with a windchill of -17. You need a good winter coat. Buy the coat."
And you know what? I bought the coat. I knew he was right and because of all the work God had been doing in my heart I didn't tell myself those dumb lies any more. I knew that just like those nice sneakers would help me stay on my feet longer and keep my body from aching at the end of the day, a sleeping bag coat would mean I'd be more likely to go outside, go for a walk, play in the snow, visit with the other moms at parent pick up. Or just be warm in the bitter cold.
- it's hard to break a habit (like negative self talk) but with the grace of God it can be done
- once our responses shift to be in line with God's Truth we begin to build new habits, meaning the more I practice treating myself with respect the more that virtue becomes firmly rooted in the place where my self hate had previously been
- clothe the naked is a work of mercy and while I wasn't naked I did lack proper clothing for the climate I live in; it's important to practice mercy to ourselves along with others.
- a sleeping bag coat really is as wonderful as it looks! The pockets are lined with fleece!
This series is so good Bonnie! And, wow, spot on point about clothe the naked- I think it's easy to focus on works of mercy as something we do for others or even only the less fortunate, but taking care of ourselves properly isn't doing less for the kingdom.ReplyDelete
Thanks, Lisa. I hadn't even made the connection to it being a work of mercy until I was actually writing the post. God is good.Delete
So happy for you! Negative self-talk is the worst! Hi away, devil! I really enjoy reading your writing.❤️ReplyDelete
Go away devil! (Never hi!)... Silly auto correctDelete
Thank you! It is the worst. I'm getting better but I still have my days...Delete
Your husband is a wise man! And that coat looks great on you.ReplyDelete
It's so good to have someone who says, "buy the coat." Especially when you're married to that someone. Definitely relate to these posts!ReplyDelete
Ps - allowing ourselves to be taken care of just opens up some emotional and mental space for others - like, get it done, move on to others - rather than having internal fights with yourself about it every time you see the other moms with the coats. That takes up space. These things can help you be a better mom. And they are acts of trust - if they are true needs and now and then, you act and trust you'll make do.Delete
Good for you!! ANd your husband. I am so similar... hate spending larger amounts on ME, esp if I have something else that sort of works. But my hubby is the same-- insists I do and get what I actually need.ReplyDelete
Travis sounds awesome. High five, Travis!ReplyDelete